Christmas 2010 will be one I will remember forever. Will it be because of that someone special I share it with? Nah, it will not. It will be because I go to sleep alone on Christmas Eve. night and wake up alone on Christmas morning. I have no children waking up in my home... I have no gifts under the tree. This transitional phase of my life will surely be one to scar me for life and make a great "One Time" story.
The thing is.. there are several of my friends who will be doing the same thing.. being alone, for whatever reason...mainly divorce. Perhaps we should all grab our pillows and blankets and adult beverages and choose one house in which to crash for the night. Wouldn't that be better than being alone? But then again, what would we do?? Sit around and rag on the very people , the ex's, who have our children and have made us be alone in the first place? Not my idea of a good time. Been there done that, without it being Christmas morning of course.
I think instead what I will do is enjoy a cup of coffee with Baileys in front of the twinkling tree, perhaps shed a tear or two (or more).. and reflect on my life....and Christmas's past. I will then go to bed, setting my alarm for around 8. I will get up and have a cup of red tea in front of the fireplace and open one gift which I will have wrapped for myself and put under the tree. I will give our dog her bone, and wait til the kids come home from their dads house.
Then again I may just go get drunk, come home and crash on the couch with my clothes on...and sleep until the kids get here on Christmas day.
The really cool thing is something I almost overlooked.....whatever I decide to do, I can do. It is just me to make the choice, not having any effect on anyone else. That is a wonderful gift in itself.
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